My Story

How I Started Writing

I always knew I had a story in me. I just didn’t realise how much I’d enjoy telling it.

For ages, I was looking for work. Really trying. But nothing was happening. Then Starmer came in with his big boots and started talking about taking PIP away, and I thought, Right. If no one’s going to give me a job, I’ll make one myself.

So I started writing. On my phone. In bed, on the sofa, anywhere the words came to me. Apart from one trip to the library to set up my publishing store, I’ve done the whole lot from my mobile. And once I got going, I couldn’t stop I loved it.

My first book, Unbreakable – to Love, is a more serious look at my life the pain, the trauma, and the strength it took to survive it all. Writing it was like peeling back layers I’d buried for years, and it was healing in ways I didn’t expect.

Then came what the FUCK because sometimes, when things go wrong, all you can do is laugh. It’s full of swearing, breakdowns, disasters, and moments that’ll make you laugh through the tears. I wrote it to show people how far I’ve come, and to say, "You’re not alone and yes, your life can be a complete shambles and beautiful at the same time."

Because when the world won’t give you a chance, you write your own damn stories. And if it makes people cry and cackle even better.

Bipolar and me

Ever since I was diagnosed with bipolar, Ive always thought to myself that I was silly, crazy and not able to function in the real world.  I think I was probably stuck in childhood memories and idealization of what I was, and that was not somebody worthy of love, care or attention. 

However in the last few months, and possibly before that, I can't remember now. I have accelerated to a person I really don't recognize. My thoughts are clearer with more clarity and with a hunger to realize what I can become and what I can do. Now I believe I have no limits, my mind has become a sponge and it wants to learn to grow and discover all this world has to offer. Thank goodness, I actually think I e been in a state of consciously being unconscious, or that's how it feels. 

Universal Laughter Land

was born